Opinions

    Hello world, hope all is well in life with every one of you out there! So I was originally working on a post about my plans and steps to prepare for my drama school auditions in February, but I feel like this particular blog should be full of life oriented posts like the one that I wrote about Pick-Me-Ups. I'm diving a little deep for this post, but before I get into it let me explain my reasoning behind all of this.
    In my mind acting is bringing truth to an imaginary situation. When I was sitting down trying to define what acting is and what it means to me, I realized that every definition I came up with had something to do with truth. So, I figured I should use my free time this summer to find the truest version of myself. I have always been the sort of person to put a different face on depending on who I am with.  As I have grown older, I have become much more aware of the personality shifts and changes that I make based on the situation I am put in.
   Going back to my definition of acting, in order to bring truth to an imaginary situation I believe an actor has to be incredibly grounded in who they are and the truths of their own life.  In a way, I suppose this is preparing me for drama school auditions because to be the best actress I can be I have to truly know who I am and be grounded in that.
    This particular post is looking at my opinions, or rather lack thereof.  For as long as I can remember I have never allowed myself to have opinions about things in life. I know that sounds like an incredibly general statement, but it's true. At a young age I realized that opinions led to disagreements and sometimes arguments which absolutely terrify me, so slowly I became the person who just agreed with whoever I was with to avoid any arguments.  And recently, after moving to a new city and meeting loads of new people, I am getting asked about myself and my favorite plays and actors and my opinions on certain performances and I realized that I have never allowed myself to make them. And when I audition for drama schools a lot of the application and interview will be asking me my opinions on all things theater related.
    The first step to fixing something is acknowledging that there is a problem correct? So, now that I am personally aware and have now made the internet aware of my phobia of having opinions I will be able to work through it.  From now on I plan to really assess my inner reactions to various things in the world, and be vocal about the feelings I discover. Yes, it may lead to some arguments, but who knows it could also lead to hundreds of other great things as well.  So, it's time to become more truthful about who I am and be grounded in my beliefs. Wish me luck!

Stay awesome guys,
Kodi

P.S. Sorry for how many times I used the word "thing" in this post.